If only there's one person that I can talk to, someone who would understand...unfortunately there isn't.
Sometimes it feels as if life is just about learning how to handle disappointment after disappointment (and to pretend that you are not disappointed), learning how to not expect anything, learning how to be more and more apathetic about things...sometimes I wonder when will I reach the bottom and stop falling?
I hope I'm feeling what I feel now because I'm being pessimistic at this moment and things will get better as I look at them differently...I've been waiting real patiently for things to get better, so if there's a God out there, please show me the light. Or maybe I have to work to make things better?
Maybe it's just Monday blue. Maybe.

Thanx seehow for your ice-cream...very touched...sorry I was too sien at that time to even say thank you, you are really one great friend.